So I was just diagnosed as bipolar, ADHD, with some social anxiety and I don't know 🤔 I don't know what to think - all I know right now is that I'm a crappy friend because I never keep commitments due to mood and my friends accept me as flaky. I wish that wasn't my label though I love that they accept me. I have wanted to know what was going on with me for soo long yet this diagnosis has me questioning everything. Both it and myself. Do I need lemotregene? Can't I just handle the mood swings? Maybe I have normal mood swings like everyone else.... but am looking for attention perhaps.

I was up till 12 am cleaning last night and then woke up at 4am wide awake, enough that I got out of bed and did stuff. At work I was grumpy, anxious, jittery and spacey but I got a lot done and then came home and did more housework. Though I'm wired I'm also feelin more depressed- is this hypomania? I know nothing about anything I've been diagnosed as so far.

But one thing I really want to know is this.... I get a tingling sensation on my brain, like drops or light sprinkles of cold water when feeling inspired or having a day like today and when depressed I immediately feel the psycical sensation of two hands cupping my brain and pushing down. Even before I feel the cognitive effects of depression and this sudden change can be immediate. I'm feeling a bit now as I'm describing the sensation. Can any of you relate to these sensations?

Sorry for my scattered thoughts. I'm feeling a lot of things right now. Xo