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Originally Posted by BellaCatEyes
I told him everything little thing about me when we met, the good, and all the bad.
Well, that has not backfired on me and caused many blowups and him raging on me.
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I am so sorry that he has betrayed you like this--it must really hurt!
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Originally Posted by BellaCatEyes
now, I don want to go into detail but every so often my boyfriend goes into these fits and calls me nasty names. But the past few weeks have been the worst and he has raised his hands towards me which left me frightened at heck.
aslo he threw my phone and smashed it but bought me a new one and said I made him do that.
We were driving home from a trip there other day and he brought something up that made him rage and he threw is ice coffee at me while in the passenger seat...
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You say you have broken up and may need to keep it that way and go no contact. It is good that you are writing this down. If you ever get back together with him again--you need to post, keep a journal or talk to a therapist about when he behaves badly--weeks later when things are stress free/ you are feeling good about the relationship--you need to remember how he has treated you in the past--try to learn from the past by not alowing him to act this way. If he woos you back you need to walk away immediately when he behaves badly.
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Originally Posted by BellaCatEyes
I have been diagnosed panic disorder 7 yrs ago. I have no self esteem and have been in some crappy relationships where the guys were all about themselves.
Im afraid to go into detail about things as I am afraid that is he found this out that he would rage out again and so afraid it will be more than throwing things.
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Do you think some of your fear of him is coming from within and not just him? You need to be able to talk about your fears. They are magnified when we are unable to talk them out. I am not an expert but have heard using steriods can make people go into rage. If you ever get back with him -- he needs to be willing to consider how the use of steriods could be effecting him--if he is not open to discuss this--that is a real problem.