So, I'm just so exhausted and frustrated and yet I have to bite my tongue and wait and trust in the pdoc prognosis. I have a month to prepare myself to say the right things and keep myself from trying to do their job and trusting they will do it. I always say I've been doing that, but apparently the NP got frustrated with me and I'll be seeing the Pdoc and I just really hope I can finally get some help and will present with the right thing. Gah! Of course I present with the right things, I'm being myself, but they are just not qualified for it. How is that my problem?! I mean, it is my problem, because I'm not fixed yet, but when I try to offer suggestions I'm... I don't know what I'm saying. I'm just really really exhausted from everyone around me (the non doctors)telling me I should be doing this and that and not that and whathaveyou. My brain is just complete mush right now and I guess following the most important person's advice, I'm just going to give up and let it happen. So on that note, time for meds and then time for bed. :P I'm just bleh! I'm sorry for these almost incomprehensible posts today. I don't think it's fair I have to go through this, but it really could be a lot worse. I at least got my support system back now. Now I just need to sleep.
Speaking of sleep, I didn't get very good sleep last night. Turns out I slept through one of my other med doses for one of my physical ailments, and just that is not good when everyone is already watching your every move. Well, at least I could pinpoint why I was feeling so crappy though. Geez! Long week! Happy almost Friday everyone!