[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

it is a difficult day today.


found out early this morning that a member of our family had passed away in hospital

why it's difficult is simple... we don't know how to react or take the news.


like, we want to act "normal", and sad, and all that stuff, but this woman's last words to us were... I hope you die in hell, so we don't exactly have the emotions that we perhaps should be displaying, but also feel bad for not feeling sad.. well we do feel sad and stuff...... a little.... hard to know how we feel

Sorry for your loss

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry for your loss, Shattered Sanity.

Another day of sinus pain, and the CPAP tank was full last night. So, don't know where this is coming from except daughter's boyfriend has the sniffles. I waited until the afternoon to take more ibuprofen. Also very tired and going hot and cold all day. I missed aqua fitness day because of it.

So basically it was a write poetry, keep up with inspirational people, and pet the cats sort of day.

Mood is kind of down but tolerable.

[BPQuestions]

Getting to the point of acceptance tht I need another med. blah. Really didnt want to take anything else but Im hella anxious and feeling down and thats just not good.

[leomama]

I’m irritated at work because I don’t get to do what I want when I want. I’m trying to practice for a championship and so far I have had no time.

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok today. I'm not in the mood to cook supper lol. We might just eat leftover
Hugs everyone!!

[giddykitty]

Originally Posted by leomama

I did a whole45 and then it’s meat poultry eggs fish shellfish fruits vegetables seeds nuts oils. I had a sugar and grain problem. It takes discipline and effort.

I gotcha! Again, sorry for anyone who has to restrict when it makes things difficult. And I hope I didn't come off as rude before, or if I did, I'm sorry. I was thinking how hard it would be for me to be without legumes and something else you said, but of course there are other things to eat besides that. Oh, it was grains that you said. I truly sympathize, and I wish you the best in finding a diet that works for you and I'll be here to encourage it. Sometimes I say dumb things because I'm worked up about something else and don't always realize just what I'm saying until I get a response and then I'm like, oh yeah duh! :P

[giddykitty]

So, I'm just so exhausted and frustrated and yet I have to bite my tongue and wait and trust in the pdoc prognosis. I have a month to prepare myself to say the right things and keep myself from trying to do their job and trusting they will do it. I always say I've been doing that, but apparently the NP got frustrated with me and I'll be seeing the Pdoc and I just really hope I can finally get some help and will present with the right thing. Gah! Of course I present with the right things, I'm being myself, but they are just not qualified for it. How is that my problem?! I mean, it is my problem, because I'm not fixed yet, but when I try to offer suggestions I'm... I don't know what I'm saying. I'm just really really exhausted from everyone around me (the non doctors)telling me I should be doing this and that and not that and whathaveyou. My brain is just complete mush right now and I guess following the most important person's advice, I'm just going to give up and let it happen. So on that note, time for meds and then time for bed. :P I'm just bleh! I'm sorry for these almost incomprehensible posts today. I don't think it's fair I have to go through this, but it really could be a lot worse. I at least got my support system back now. Now I just need to sleep.
Speaking of sleep, I didn't get very good sleep last night. Turns out I slept through one of my other med doses for one of my physical ailments, and just that is not good when everyone is already watching your every move. Well, at least I could pinpoint why I was feeling so crappy though. Geez! Long week! Happy almost Friday everyone!

[leomama]

Originally Posted by giddykitty

I gotcha! Again, sorry for anyone who has to restrict when it makes things difficult. And I hope I didn't come off as rude before, or if I did, I'm sorry. I was thinking how hard it would be for me to be without legumes and something else you said, but of course there are other things to eat besides that. Oh, it was grains that you said. I truly sympathize, and I wish you the best in finding a diet that works for you and I'll be here to encourage it. Sometimes I say dumb things because I'm worked up about something else and don't always realize just what I'm saying until I get a response and then I'm like, oh yeah duh! :P

Lol well this post sure gave my stalker plenty of material to work with. It’s like any time I talk about something on psych central it shows up on his Facebook but oh no, he’s not stalking me.
Restrict your diet how you like or don’t like. It’s a personal decision.

[giddykitty]

What?? I'm so confused (and exhausted). Forgive me. Should I have not quoted you? I'm sorry you have that problem or do you? As I said, I'm so confused. I've gotta get ready for bed now though and battery about to die. Good luck!

[leomama]

Originally Posted by giddykitty

What?? I'm so confused (and exhausted). Forgive me. Should I have not quoted you? I'm sorry you have that problem or do you? As I said, I'm so confused. I've gotta get ready for bed now though and battery about to die. Good luck!

I was being sarcastic. I saw the person who was stalking me posting on Facebook about the Paleo diet and I was like ‘oh boy here we go’. I was talking about my original post. My fault for talking about it on psych central where I have no privacy.

[Wander]

Back to work today after two weeks off. Not really feeling up to it but should be ok. My holidays were good although I was very ill at times. Psychosis seems to have passed but still agitated. Haloperidol seems to have helped. Wish me well with starting back up at work and then University in a week.

[pirilin]

Living life. In all its pain and all its glory.

[leomama]

Slightly irritated as I await a housing inspection followed by work and then a work meeting.

[Cornucopia]

Been to work, been to meeting. Now I’m gonna enjoy the evening on the couch.

Parts of my body is a bit sore, some muscle pain, think it’s the seroquel maybe.
Doesn’t matter, I am having a pretty wonderful day.
Work and meeting went well, no anxiety today. Oh, and that just feels amazing.

Hugs to those wanting/needing them

[Tucson]

I am at a restaurant right now using their WiFi. The manager is filling my cup of coffee up every ten minutes. I am guzzling it down today. I am sure I will be making frequent trip to the bathroom.

My daughter has just turned 18. We had a “get together” at the Cheese Cake Factory. I had a humongous amount of calories there. I will have to eat a low amount of calories in the next couple of days to offset this gluttony. Anyways, now my daughter needs to get a drivers license and a car. In this way, I do not need to drive her to school every day even though I do like seeing her. We had our problems, but everything is now good for the time being.

This is important. I met with a person who works for the city. He is helping me find a job. He thinks volunteering will give me a first start in a working environment. I will be testing and taking apart PC so the hardware can be shipped to a business in Asia. I may also install software and show people how to use it, those who are very inexperienced with using PCs. I am both looking forward to this, and a little nervous and intimidated by this, even though I am overqualified for this work.

[Moreta]

I feel better today. Having a productive day. I went to the pharmacy and took them a new equetro coupon that worked so my prescription was only $20 instead of $80. That made me happy. Then I went to Aldi and I budgeted $30 for food for a week and spent $31 including dog food for the rest of the month. Then I went to the place in town with the cheapest gas, so now I'll have gas till the end of the month. I don't go many places and if I do I don't drive many miles. The most miles is when I drive to my drs or church and a lot of that is on the highway. I came up with the idea to get a hammock to put on the back deck and my friend said her boyfriend could put it up for me. He's handy like that. Then I can chill out there and watch the wildlife. We mostly have birds, but sometimes we have deer and turkeys too. The deck is enclosed with those slotted glass windows from the 70s? lol. My smart coffee came today and my new pair of leggings I bought. I'm thinking about getting a clothes line to put outside so we can save on the electric bill. I'd like to get something for composting and a rain water drum too for when I have my garden. It's getting close to gardening season here. Strawberries usually go in mid march. I'm not sure what to put in my garden this year. I need a fence for it though so the damn deer don't eat it like last year. Anyways I'm rambling. Hope y'all have a good day.

[leomama]

Slightly scared as I decided to give something up that would raise my rent,

Well, after COMPLETELY freaking BF out, the Drs backpedaled and will be continuing current course of treatment. Not sure what to say about that.

As for me, bleh, not sure. Days, weeks, months just go by in a fog of ennui and there are so many things it could be attributable to, who knows?

But on a good note, BF asked how I felt about getting a pet again (our last one died in 2016). Ummm, I've secretly been trying to come up with adorable potential names, if that's any clue(!) We've got some preparation to do, but hopefully sometime soonish we'll have a couple sweet guinea pigs!

I think it will be good for us to have pets again.

[hopeless2015]

Still doing ok. Last year was really rough so I'm enjoying some much needed stability right now. I know it's only Feb but if I can make it through this year without an ip stay it I'll be thrilled.

Hugs everyone!!

[LadyShadow]

Hanging on, had a medication change recently, and I am hoping it will help get me out of this Hell I created for myself. Hell being a horrible sleeping schedule.

[Tucson]

I would like a pit bull as a dog. I would be forced to take care of the dog, like taking a walk. Allot of this type of dog are wound tight and aggressive. I think that this is due to their owner on how they are treated or trained. It also maybe how they were bred. I then found this pit bull. There was not an angry bone in his body. We played together, and he was always happy to see me.

[Guiness187055]

Rough day I am having a ton of anxiety and a few panic attacks. Thank God for xanax.

[xRavenx]

I can't wait til the week is over. I was treated like crap by a co-worker today, which doesn't help the fact I've been under a lot of pressure by people lately. A co-worker was nasty to me when i was just trying to start conversation. She said my name in a condescending way and said she had "more important things to think about." I always treat her with respect so it really took me by surprise. I had to take some deep breaths to keep it together. I don't even feel like talking to anyone at work for the rest of the day and it makes me want to avoid her for a little while. I feel like I just ruin everything.

[Unrigged64072835]

Woke up at 2:30 AM and couldn't go back to sleep. My brain decided we had black mold in the house even though my husband said we don't. He's checked it and he should know, but with the water damage from the leaking roof I don't know. At least the chest tightness went away. Haven't had that in a long time. I haven't taken a nap or had caffeine, and I'm still alert. Weird.

We went out for burgers, picked up drinks and magazines, and walked the mall for a bit. The music store was rather depleted and I didn't feel like buying clothes. We did stop at the humane society's cat shoppe and made a donation, though. Feet and back were sore so we went home.

Have meatloaf in the oven so good for a while. Kids are playing D&D tomorrow night. How funny--my brother has played that for decades (still does at 53) and now my daughter is playing it.

[Sunflower123]

Really depressed today. Trying to hang on. This lack of sleep is wearing me down.