Funny how some think but, yes, cigarettes are expensive and I believe I said that I always pay my debts even if I can't afford to.
I had been quit for eight months and only started back due to extreme stress.
I have terrible OCD and on top of that we live in a filthy apartment that I desperately want to get out of but, that's probably my fault too since I only clean up my messes and not his as well even though he demands that I do so while he is at work.
On top of that when you are fighting bipolar, extreme OCD, possible DID, constant worry, fear, anxiety, being diabetic and a whole load of other emotions because things are piling up on you it is a bit hard not to start smoking again or to use whatever will ease the internal agony.

And just for the record, Lark. I thank God that a very good friend on here saved me from you with a comment in an older thread that changed your mind about talking with me.
You're nothing like you claimed to be in that thread. Very much the opposite actually.