Today my boss told me im not feeling well and she wants to ask a professional if im able to work. I feel trapped. I was going down the road of self destruction but didnt ewant them to see. I dont want to open up with anyone and i only want to follow through with what i started. A dozen pills today made me sick and dizzy but i want more, until i need hospital or i eventually die.

What to do with my boss? I care and she cares but she cant stand in the middle of my plan (sui)