Caught

Today my boss told me im not feeling well and she wants to ask a professional if im able to work. I feel trapped. I was going down the road of self destruction but didnt ewant them to see. I dont want to open up with anyone and i only want to follow through with what i started. A dozen pills today made me sick and dizzy but i want more, until i need hospital or i eventually die.

What to do with my boss? I care and she cares but she cant stand in the middle of my plan (sui)

Your boss sounds like an intuitive woman. Try and see the big picture and be grateful for her honesty with you; you would do the same for someone you cared for, correct?

Please go to hospital immediately. PLEASE. It's about 5:00 (17:00) your time, correct? Hospital won't be too crowded now.

If you absolutely cannot get to hospital, read this right now. Just click the link:
https://metanoia.org/suicide/

I know it sounds really hard, but please, let her help you. You deserve it - don't waste this opportunity.

Please check in, sinking. Let us know how you're doing.

Laurie is right I would go to the hospital they can help you out.

I hope it works for you and your boss trying to help you. I'd be certain you know what she wants to do for you and be perfectly clear about it.

Dont know how to behave around her anymore

Mt boss will call the mental.services on me.
But im good at lying and tell them what they want to hear

I know that you have suffered. But please, be honest. They're trying to help you - it's for your own sake. You won't be like this forever..

Why did you go to work at first place? You should have gone to the hospital immediately.