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Originally Posted by DechanDawa
All I can say is...gorgeous. You can write! Like, wow can you write.  Thank you for this. I know you have had your recent trials. I read of them. (I even looked up your Mom's condition on the Internet because I had never heard of it.) I did not know how I wanted to respond because you were so raw in the moment. But, yes, I was there reading your words, as always. 
Everything you say here about spirituality rings true for me. I do believe it. As you and I have talked about...that spiritual experience is fluid...and morphs...and we just have to...rest in that. And that part has been working for me and going to church during this Lenten Season has worked. We need to keep this circle of active prayer (and passive prayer, too) going. My dear lady, thank you again for this from my heart.  |
Awww honey, thank you so much for appreciating my words!! (Well, I always know you do anyway), but still, its always nice to hear it!! I knew in my heart you watching and reading what I was going through, and its okay if you didn't know what to say, I mean I wasn't even asking for advice on that thread, I was just pouring my heart out to all the kind, wonderful people here, just in that raw moment. I write and write a lot you know, it's like how I find peace, how I cope, and I always just like spew all this word vomit out there not really expecting anyone to read it or even appreciate it. It's my ULTIMATE therapy, despite doctors, therapists, pills, and all that other nonsense. That's why I TRULY believe that when you come here and write on this thread, it helps you, even if you don't see it at the time.
But you're absolutely right, I mean that's one of the things that was ringing in my head when I read your recent posts, about just "how spirituality is fluid, and morphs and you just have to.....rest in it." That is such a beautiful statement, and it couldn't be more pertinent to your situation. I am SO glad that you have kept up in attending church regularly, and keeping the prayer circle going all filled with love and light. It's marvelous, and I think this is your trial, your salvation, and it will help you greatly on your journey.
I am so grateful for all the knowledge you have shared with me, truly. And I am in awe that you took the time to look up what my Mom has, I know it's not a common thing, but most people wouldn't bother to investigate what it was. I honestly never heard of it either, but apparently she developed it while training and running so much and NOT eating and taking care of herself, allowing the bacteria to take over. It's a real shame to see her this way. But I am pulling through, staying strong, and getting through each day as best I can. I mean what else can you do right??
Sending you love and peace always, (from the city that never sleeps, even though I am posting in the day, yay!). I am walking with you truly, in every step you take.