@Christina: I am from Germany.

@tecomsin: I think he has a point. But, yes, at the same time I feel that he is overreacting. He keeps looking for mature explanations of my past in order to have something to believe that I really did change. I was looking for insights, for strategies to cope, to make it easier for him to accept. This thread is a lot of help. I am starting to realise that this can't continue.

All of my friends and family think that he is dramatising ... I don't want people to say what they think is good or easiest for me. I wanted to save this relationship and to be criticized.