Welp I did it I called another T ( thanks to my friend who helped me for the encouragement) unfortunately they are booked for a bit but I did it and eventually I’ll meet them. I’m kinda scared when I finally do meet my new T do I ghost on you or confront you. I just know I have this Love/ Hate thing going on so it is just best I leave I know it’s hard but I have to rip off this bandaid and start over.