3 days til I see you. It will have been 2 weeks but I swear it feels like 2 months, maybe longer.

I know I will want to hide my face in shame, because I feel so childish and pathetic and unworthy of seeing you. I want to be able to look at you, but it will probably feel too unsafe.

I wonder if you’ll say that all the attachment stuff is ok. You might but then you don’t know what it’s like. It doesn’t feel ok to me. I don’t know what is too much to tell you. I think it must be too much. It’s not ok. It’s really not ok. But I can’t leave you either. I don’t know what to do