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Had my last session with T yesterday. He left the door open for me to come back.
I don't know how I feel. Somehow, knowing that he would be willing to see me again in the future makes me feel better. That he's not gone forever.
Despite the difficulties we've had, I have grown and learned a lot about myself.
There is a mixture of relief, sadness, grief, loneliness and so much more. It feels like he is a part of me. I carry him with me. Meeting him has changed me forever. I love him. It's not romantic love, but a pure love. Just love. I'm 35 years old and he's the first person that I have truly loved. I never knew that it was possible to feel this for anyone. I didn't understand what love was until after I met my T.
The depth of feeling is indescribable. I don't know if I will ever feel this deeply for anyone else in my life, but at least now I know what it is like to FEEL this love and I am grateful.
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"But it's in my roots, it's in my veins / It's in my blood and I stain every heart that I use to heal the pain." - River Lea by Adele
Last edited by NativeSky; Mar 31, 2018 at 03:35 AM.
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