Yeah, he's actually the only T I've ever trusted this much. He's never forced me IP and I don't believe he ever will. I respect him for that. I don't know, maybe I should call him and tell him the real reason I won't go in. Maybe he could tell me if my fears are real or not. A part of me knows that they couldn't possibly care that much about me to control my mind. The rest of me doesn't care about that other part and always has an argument against it.

I don't know, I'm just really confused anymore.