DID.... those... three little letters... aren't they....

How do you explain... to someone... what they really mean...

the physicians... the dentists... the health care providers...friends.. family.. people you meet on the street... and people you meet in the store....

Please let me have my feelings
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For me... and I speak.. for me alone...

I have a "stamp".... on me.. it is invisible... to me.. but not others..

It says................. Unloveable..............................

And... no matter... how hard I try... no matter.. how much I scrub.. no matter.. what...

In the end... there it is.. the stamp

unloveable...

forever and a day.......................... unloveable.......

I didn't "choose" to be DID... though.. I did.... because... my tiny little body and mind wanted to live...but.. I wonder.. really wonder.. if way back then.. if I would have made the same choice... if perhaps.. if I know.. then.. what I know now...that it would leave me with a

forever and a day stamp... of unloveable...
would I have choosen.. differently??? yes.. I believe I would have...

I had... an extremely trying day.... packed on by more... with the rest of the trying days lately....