Well, it certainly doesn't feel good when life hits you when you are down--literally with two broken feet. Maybe you felt sucker-punched and it took the wind out of you. But you sound resilient and I believe your joy will return...things you can do in the meantime??? Hmm...stimulate yourself mentally--read, research, talk, do puzzles to exercise the gray matter. Surround yourself with joyful folks, not he Hahaha loud ones, but the folks who have a base of joy and love. Cancel negative self-talk--those tapes in your head. When a negative thought floats across, say aloud. I cancel that and am open to what is and what will be. Give to others who may need it--with two broken feet, that could mean emailing encouraging thoughts to someone. Be good to yourself, learn, grow, and you will be a resource for your brother. Hope all turns out well...