Ugh. I am hypomanic right now. My pdoc saw me at my last appointment; I guess I was talking a mile a minute, interrupting him, etc., and he upped my Seroquel to 450 mg/night from 300 mg/night. Thing is, I don't want to take it. I tried it one night, and it made me sleepy the next day. I have been doing extreme things, like going on 9-10 mile walks (I am needing to actually gain weight after losing a ton of weight after ulcer surgery, but I have a past with an eating disorder, and that part of me likes the lower weight--I am 5'4" and weigh 102 lb. and the ED loves that). I start taking risky driving moves. I need to get this under control because I know my sleeping less will get worse & worse, and I will start with the overspending. Already, interrupting my husband in speech is irritating him. But, of course, the hypomania feels so much better than the depression. I don't see the pdoc for another 3 weeks, but he told me to call him next week, so he could at least talk to me on the phone. I just can't make myself take that extra half of the Seroquel pill at night before bed, and I need to. I HATE when my brain tells me one thing, but I ignore it and do the opposite.

Anyone else do this?