hypomanic & don't want to listen to pdoc

Ugh. I am hypomanic right now. My pdoc saw me at my last appointment; I guess I was talking a mile a minute, interrupting him, etc., and he upped my Seroquel to 450 mg/night from 300 mg/night. Thing is, I don't want to take it. I tried it one night, and it made me sleepy the next day. I have been doing extreme things, like going on 9-10 mile walks (I am needing to actually gain weight after losing a ton of weight after ulcer surgery, but I have a past with an eating disorder, and that part of me likes the lower weight--I am 5'4" and weigh 102 lb. and the ED loves that). I start taking risky driving moves. I need to get this under control because I know my sleeping less will get worse & worse, and I will start with the overspending. Already, interrupting my husband in speech is irritating him. But, of course, the hypomania feels so much better than the depression. I don't see the pdoc for another 3 weeks, but he told me to call him next week, so he could at least talk to me on the phone. I just can't make myself take that extra half of the Seroquel pill at night before bed, and I need to. I HATE when my brain tells me one thing, but I ignore it and do the opposite.

Anyone else do this?

You've been down this road before. What can you do this time that won't make you feel guilty in the morning.

Would going to a medical centre help?

I've also been hypo lately and I'm trying my...I'm trying. I didn't even smoke weed the last few days, by choice.

I have Valium that I can take, but I'm really enjoying the clarity without all the meds.

Just thought I would share this useless information with you.

Warm milk (microwaved) will bring you down a bit. Don't eat after midnight.

Yes, absolutely, yes, I love the rush. I’m going shopping today. Amazon first. Gotta pay the electric bill, though.

I’m not sure about food this month.

Huh...I posted a response and lost it. No, going to a med center wouldn’t help me. If I don’t get it under control, I will end up in the psych hospital again, and I have had enough of hospitalizations this year (needed emergency surgery and a 6 day hospital stay for a perforated ulcer, non-psych related). I guess I will take the extra half pill of Seroquel tonight, It’s Sunday tomorrow, so it is not like I have to get my daughter to school. Hopefully, an extra cup of coffee can help me with getting her to school on time next week. Luckily, the drive to the school takes only about 5 minutes, most of that in 20 mph school zones, so not hard traffic to drive in. Pdoc said I could call him in 1 to 2 weeks. I think I will give him a call Thursday since he does not come into the office on Friday. Just hope I can get thru this next week OK. I hate when doing the right thing doesn’t make me feel good physically...sigh.

I don't tend to eat after dinner unless I've forgotten my vitamins (calcium & magnesium with a women's multi-vitamin), and then I get restless leg syndrome. It's the worst. Usually have to have milk, a banana, yogurt or something to help with that. But I've been better about taking my vitamins again since the last bout of RLS.