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Originally Posted by mote.of.soul
Hello. I felt a number of things. Sadness and longing, happiness, but also some of the shock from the time she died, which has diminished over the years but never really left me. It's still hard to believe she's gone, but there she was sitting in the car, so to speak. I felt like it was half of her sitting in the car and if she saw me, part of her might even recognize me. Silly, I know. Strange.
But you've had a lot more of these experiences in a much shorter time. I'm sorry about your brother. It's interesting that at the moment you were looking at the waiter, your bosses wife asked how many siblings you had. I find sychronicities and coincidences interesting.
How are you feeling today, ohmydaisy?
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So the sadness never leaves. That's something I've read as I was trying to research things. May I ask, has it been difficult to have relationships?
No grief is ever the same, especially with the memories attached to it, or that's what I'm taking from this and the research. With mine, my wall has thickened? (that's the best way I can explain it). So it's preventing any connecting with people.
What is your take on synchronicities and coincidences? It was weird when that happened. I felt trapped in a place of wondering about the waiter and trying to stay in the present with the people I went out to dinner with.
Today was a mentally draining day. I avoided emotions, then decided to write the letter to my brother, as was instructed by my therapist, but the start of crying was weird so I took a shower. Showers usually stop my crying because it makes me laugh. Can't tell which are tears or the warm water and then I feel silly crying, which then makes me laugh.