I have recently begun taking medication for depression. My doctor told me it would take up to a month to start working, and I'm on day eleven but I think it may be working somewhat - it is hard for me to tell because I have a number of physical conditions that can cause depression like symptoms and the severity of those symptoms can ebb and flow, but yeah, I'm pretty certain that it has already started working.

I am filled with self-loathing that it is necessary to take them and I'm trying to figure out if I could possibly get enough out of them to compensate for the internal condemnation I am experiencing. Anyway, I suppose no one can answer that question but me and time, but I'd accept any insight or suggestions as to what to do with these feelings. Fact is, major depressive disorder complete with romanticizing death was present before I hated myself for taking these meds...now I'm beginning to have the strength to get up and do something right about the time that the only thing I want to do is...well, you can probably figure that out on your own.