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I have a session with just my talk therapy T. Not the one doing parts integration. I just do not know what to talk about anymore except I feel I am losing some functionality ever since T2 decided I was on the DID spectrum. I feel a little unhinged, a little lost, dazed and confused. Stuck in my own head rolling old memories and actions over in my head trying to see if I remember if it was me or not.
On the positive side my bulimia has disappeared and I am finally sleeping a full night. I like talking to T1 as he does not scare me like the other one does. We do not talk about parts or go into trauma. I feel like I need to talk more about this new diagnosis as it is really troubling me but I have never dissociated with him or shut down or so called switched parts so he does not see what the other guy sees.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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