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Originally Posted by Amyjay
Regardless of the age it is a very real and vital conflict that drives many dissociative systems.
Some are desperately "needy" and contain/hold that universal human need. It isn't wrong. It isn't awful. It is a necessary human need that enables young human beings to successfully attach to adult caregivers. That need is in us for a reason - it is essential to our survival.
On the other hand there are those that learned through repeated and bitter experience that their environment did not meet that need and the best way to survive under the circumstances was to not need at all. Their job is to crush and hide that need for the safety of all. Under the circumstance, they are not "wrong" either.
Either this unwinnable battle rages within your for all eternity or -
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Yes these two polarized parts have been battling each other. The needy one and the one who needs to crush that need. I has been a rough week since I last saw my T.
I feel like I am losing functionality, have felt unhinged, then just numb and flat then to a need to escape. Sunday was real rough
Even with all this I still am sleeping (makes no sense to me) and the bulimia is no where to be found (still makes no sense to me.)
I prided myself in having insight and learning but I feel like all this is new and I am having a hard time navigating these waters.