I thought that your English was lovely.

I read your entire post. But truly I had read all I needed to know when you said:

After eight years, you do not actually love him. That, to me, is enough to answer your question.

I also agree with everything divine said. Enough is enough.

It seems that a main reason to not break up with him is that he will be hurt and may struggle. But you are to be his partner, not his mother. You have spent eight years giving him the guidance that you say he lacked as a child.

You have been his caregiver long enough.

Those vignettes you shared about his anger, his refusal to listen, his "ice treatment", his anti-sociability, his willingness to mock you, his inability or unwillingness to make progress in any direction in life, his pride, his unwillingness to help, his inability to accept criticism...so many problems, so much emotional abuse. They all give every indication that living with him will be hellonearth.

If you break up with him, and I hope that you do, then put away all of those things he gave you. That will help you move on. It was nice that he gave you things, but not nearly enough. A truly sweet man would share with you of his sweetness every day by doing the opposite of what he does to you every day.