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Originally Posted by cryingontheinside
I've been looking for ways to end my life to night . I couldn't think of anything that would work . Im going to go to bed soon but I just wish I didn't have to wake up .
Does anyone else feel really ashamed of themselves without really knowing why ? That's how I feel. It's strange because I don't feel really sad or tearful . I feel other emotions which are unpleasant but not unbearable yet I really just want to end my life . Nobody would know I feel like this because it doesn't show. If someone came round to visit me I could probably laugh and smile and make jokes with them . Yet as soon as they left if I saw an opportunity to end my life I would take it . I guess it's hard to explain and depression is not straight forward and isn't always only about feeling sad . This is a weird post I know . But it's how I am feeling .
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please take care.
I know you want to end it- I know you do
but is their anything else you can do to distract yourself
looking up ways to end your life is just going to make it worse
((((hugs)))))
I think the best way I can describe my shame is,
why havon't I done more?
I'm at an age where I should have done more
their are people half my age who have done more things with their lives.. and I know a lot of it has to do with the abuse, and the fact I didn't get much of a chance, is it really an excuse?
I'm not even living in the same house anymore- I should be making up for the time I lost, not sitting down feeling defeated