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Old Jul 11, 2018, 02:14 PM
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This may sound like one of those "that should be an obvious answer" questions, and maybe I am just dumb or something. But let me explain my situation and then tell me what y'all think...

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I have been having "passive" suicidal thoughts, such as "I wish I didn't wake up in the morning". I have also been having "active" suicidal thoughts such as researching how I could go through with it.


So, my question comes in to play with the following: I have not actually made the decision yet to go through with it, but have obtained items "in case" the urge should overcome me. I feel like I want to be ready in the event it should happen. I don't want to "change my mind" as I have in the past. So, because I "anticipate" that "urge" overcoming me at some point in the future and am "preparing" to go through with it when the "urge" does happen, does that mean I am suicidal NOW? This question haunts me because I don't know what to say if someone should ask me, "Are you suicidal?"...
First off this is not a stupid question. I too struggle with being passively suicidal and actively suicidal. As far as "professionals" are concerned they are both considered to be suicidal. In my personal opinion there is a big difference in wanting to die/not wanting to live & wanting to take your own life.
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