I tried the talkspace thing for a time at the very beginning because it was the weekend and I was desperate. It is expensive and insurance doesn't cover it. Plus, I was sorely disappointed in the response of the therapist. It was very intermittent and nothing like sitting in front of someone to talk out issues. Why don't you want to do see someone close? Because the one you saw was too strict? Sorry, I'm unclear on the first part of your thread. But, you may need someone who is strict. Mine is a good combination of strict and committed.