I've been that way my whole life too a outsider looking in .Even though I've been with my wife for 23 years when i get really sick she just doesn't understand if anything she pushes me a way because she feels nothing she dose helps me feel better she gets scared .

But the day i joined a mental heath groups in my area was the greats !!! thing I could have ever down to help mental heath. To meet people like my self to finely fit in ! I know now that you can have a mental illness yet be smart , kind and good person . Because before i felt like a reject. Now i know I'm not thanks to all the friends I meet like my self I'm not . To hear one person after a other tell me my life story but its its it theirs .

Just like people go to AA or NA To find support We need to have the same support. Mental heath groups are much harder to find and are place in out of the way areas but we should be use to that type of treatment .