I'm tired of feeling so low and flat. No motivation, feeling worthless, insecure, hopeless, little energy.

I only get things done through sheer force - I miss how I had motivation to do things. It used to come naturally without effort. I hope those days are not behind me.

I'm starting to think of lowering my lithium dose. It's not doing anything and I'm experiencing side effects so I might as well reduce or stop it.