I feel good today. Hubby is home because we need to go to Philly for his regular eye appointment at Wills Eye Hospital. We'll maybe eat there before, I hope.

Tomorrow I see my beloved psychiatrist for the first time in five weeks. He always takes a very long summer vacation to his summer home on an island. I always feel better when he's back.

[Scooter9]

I'm tired of feeling so low and flat. No motivation, feeling worthless, insecure, hopeless, little energy.

I only get things done through sheer force - I miss how I had motivation to do things. It used to come naturally without effort. I hope those days are not behind me.

I'm starting to think of lowering my lithium dose. It's not doing anything and I'm experiencing side effects so I might as well reduce or stop it.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I'm tired of feeling so low and flat. No motivation, feeling worthless, insecure, hopeless, little energy.

I only get things done through sheer force - I miss how I had motivation to do things. It used to come naturally without effort. I hope those days are not behind me.

I'm starting to think of lowering my lithium dose. It's not doing anything and I'm experiencing side effects so I might as well reduce or stop it.

I am really sorry you are feeling like this, that is such an unpleasant way to feel. I hope it doesn't last long.

[liveforsummer]

Couldn’t get out of bed til almost 11. Latest in a long time. Only got up cause I was hungry and my weight is already precariously low. I seem to spend 45-60 min at a time just to decide the simplest things. There’s things to be done but I don’t want to do them. The addition of Cipralex at week 2 has done nothing. I’ll carry on the full 6 weeks but ditch it if no improvement.

[yellow_fleurs]

Feeling very distracted today, spacey, kind of flat, sad, but then at times kind of happy. I think mostly just discontinuation symptoms right now, and hope they don't last long. I definitely still have self destructive thoughts and feel pretty exhausted with these moods, but feel as though my healthy inner voice is a little stronger. Made myself lie in bed until I fell asleep around midnight last night. Had a restless sleep full of some vivid dreams, but at least I slept. I am realizing that I have been in mixed episodes for so long at this point, I think, that it is going to take awhile to heal myself and it is not going to be an overnight thing. Just going to stick with my plan of self care as best as possible, and hope I find a way out somehow at some point. Also working on meditation and mindfulness techniques.

[Sunflower123]

I didn’t sleep again last night due to my anxiety. My depression has kicked up today as well. Today will be another cuddle with the pets day. Fun times all around!

I had an appointment with a thoroughly unpleasant, obnoxious doctor yesterday to treat my carpal tunnel. I don’t want to be difficult but I don’t think I want this doctor involved in my treatment which might include surgery. Not sure what to do without making waves.

Sending hugs to those that are struggling.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I didn’t sleep again last night due to my anxiety. My depression has kicked up today as well. Fun times all around!

I had an appointment with a thoroughly unpleasant, obnoxious doctor yesterday to treat my carpal tunnel. I don’t want to be difficult but I don’t think I want this doctor involved in my treatment which might include surgery. Not sure what to do.

Sending hugs to those that are struggling.

Definitely worth getting a second opinion if you don't think he is the right one for you! Especially if considering surgery.

I messed up and three of my friends on the island won't talk to me, and there's business to settle. Business that owes us money or objects. My wife, usually the smartest person in the room, suggested that I shut up and wait but unfortunately I'm highly imbalanced, downloading Engagement Protocol 118: Interpersonal Thermonuclear War. Nothing in moderation.

[Unrigged64072835]

Did labs and picked up a couple of meds. Hope I see the results next week before I see the new doc the beginning of Sept. If it's bad I'll get a message to come in sooner.

Daughter had a meltdown last night and texted us after we went to bed. After some assurances from us and her friends she was okay. Sent her some money and found out she didn't need it afterwards. Would've been nice to know.

Still tired from not sleeping well and kind of down. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow so I can do some more work.

[Scooter9]

I finished a toilet removal and installation.

I had forgotten how heavy a toilet is and what a pain it is getting things lined up properly. I had to make a couple of trips to home depot for parts.

My son helped me and it's always nice to spend time with him.

I'm still feeling low and flat. I emailed my pdoc about stopping lithium. Interested to see what she says.

[Moose72]

Still worried about the inspection friday. At least did SOMETHING toward it today. I talked with my friend all day. Im developing feelings for him. (Not the sex buddy.) It will be a while before we can get together because both his cars need work and I still dont have my ****ing cpap yet! They said it would take a signature on a form but of course this is taking forever.... Pdocs nurse never called me back witj a message from pdoc about my meds. So I guess its the same? I found a couple files of me manic. Wow. Not the same as hypo at all!

Memories of Mania - Forums at Psych Central

[Blueberrybook]

Ugh, so after my long run this morning, I started not feeling very well. I went to the doctor, and he confirmed what I thought, yep, I have a UTI. I had a 100 degree fever too already. He prescribed me an antibiotic for the most common types of bacteria causing UTIs but said they will call in a few days if the culture comes back showing that antibiotic does not work well against the bacteria causing my UTI.

Then, I got a huge lecture on my weight. I guess I was there in June, and I’ve lost 7 lb. since then, and I was already underweight then. I got all this nutritionist info, but I don’t really want to gain any weight back. Stupid ED.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by cln1812

Ugh, so after my long run this morning, I started not feeling very well. I went to the doctor, and he confirmed what I thought, yep, I have a UTI. I had a 100 degree fever too already. He prescribed me an antibiotic for the most common types of bacteria causing UTIs but said they will call in a few days if the culture comes back showing that antibiotic does not work well against the bacteria causing my UTI.

Then, I got a huge lecture on my weight. I guess I was there in June, and I’ve lost 7 lb. since then, and I was already underweight then. I got all this nutritionist info, but I don’t really want to gain any weight back. Stupid ED.

(((Cln1812))))

[liveforsummer]

Went to the grocery store. Stood at the self check out and I had to input the vegetable code , I was holding celery but my brain couldn’t remember its name and kept saying it’s lettuce. I knew it wasn’t lettuce but couldn’t remember the name celery. Standing there like that was probably 15 seconds but it felt longer.
Memory woes.

Having a hard time finding anything good about today.

Hugs to all

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Went to the grocery store. Stood at the self check out and I had to input the vegetable code , I was holding celery but my brain couldn’t remember its name and kept saying it’s lettuce. I knew it wasn’t lettuce but couldn’t remember the name celery. Standing there like that was probably 15 seconds but it felt longer.
Memory woes.

Having a hard time finding anything good about today.

Hugs to all

Ditto. My brain does this al the time! Hope you're feeling better!

[Cocosurviving]

Over the last few months I had not been having a problem sleeping so I stopped getting my Ambien from my psychiatrist. Well about a week ago the insomnia came back. I made an appointment to get a refill of Ambien. I found an old bottle that said take before “10-23-18”. I had an important appointment very early so I took one Abmien last night. I woke up at 2 AM and my whole face was swollen. Both my lips were extra huge and under my eyes were swollen as well. I called my Walgreen’s there 24 hours and spoke to the pharmacist. She told me to take two Benadryl. I did that and drank a lot of water then went back to bed. I woke up at 6:30 AM to get ready for my appointment my face was not much better. I’m not into being 105 lbs but I take my face seriously. I wanted to cry. After my appointment was over I went to urgent care. I was given a steroid shot, a pill to take down the swelling and a prescription

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Went to the grocery store. Stood at the self check out and I had to input the vegetable code , I was holding celery but my brain couldn’t remember its name and kept saying it’s lettuce. I knew it wasn’t lettuce but couldn’t remember the name celery. Standing there like that was probably 15 seconds but it felt longer.
Memory woes.

Having a hard time finding anything good about today.

Hugs to all

I think that almost everyone has done that.
I could not remember the name of that thing that you open and go through (a door)

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

Over the last few months I had not been having a problem sleeping so I stopped getting my Ambien from my psychiatrist. Well about a week ago the insomnia came back. I made an appointment to get a refill of Ambien. I found an old bottle that said take before “10-23-18”. I had an important appointment very early so I took one Abmien last night. I woke up at 2 AM and my whole face was swollen. Both my lips were extra huge and under my eyes were swollen as well. I called my Walgreen’s there 24 hours and spoke to the pharmacist. She told me to take two Benadryl. I did that and drank a lot of water then went back to bed. I woke up at 6:30 AM to get ready for my appointment my face was not much better. I’m not into being 105 lbs but I take my face seriously. I wanted to cry. After my appointment was over I went to urgent care. I was given a steroid shot, a pill to take down the swelling and a prescription

How frightening! I hope the steroid shot helps.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

I woke up at 2 AM and my whole face was swollen. Both my lips were extra huge and under my eyes were swollen as well. I called my Walgreen’s there 24 hours and spoke to the pharmacist. She told me to take two Benadryl. I did that and drank a lot of water then went back to bed. I woke up at 6:30 AM to get ready for my appointment my face was not much better.

Something similar happened to me but with aspirin. Same swelling of the lips and eyes.

I remember it took a few hours for the shot to work. But this was a long time ago and it might not have been a steroid.

I hope you recover soon.

[Wild Coyote]

I want to write more in response to many.
I am just too agitated right now.

Love to All!

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I want to write more in response to many.
I am just too agitated right now.

Love to All!

WC

I hope you feel better soon. Sending many hugs and supportive vibes.

[Blueberrybook]

Just checking in to say UTIs suck. I am not feeling much improved after 2 doses of the antibiotic. I have a headache, fever, general malaise & tiredness along with the common UTI symptoms, so I have felt better.

I am a bit anxious and down today. I did sleep 11 hours last night though.

I have a pdoc appt tomorrow but called and was able to reschedule it as a phone appointment because I am not sure how I will feel tomorrow. I had to go to the grocery store for a few things, and that really sucked.

[Daonnachd]

I had mentioned on cln’s anniversary that mine was close. Well, today is my 25th anniversary.

Cln, I hope that infection is cured quickly. And, Coco, I hope the swelling is gone. I hope, too, that the day goes well for everyone.

I’m going to meet with my T today and finish up my WRAP.

[Pescasaurus]

hi ya'll

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by vertigo

I had mentioned on cln’s anniversary that mine was close. Well, today is my 25th anniversary.

Cln, I hope that infection is cured quickly. And, Coco, I hope the swelling is gone. I hope, too, that the day goes well for everyone.

I’m going to meet with my T today and finish up my WRAP.

Happy 25th anniversary... congratulations!