Hi. No, don't feel stupid, it's a legitimate question you asked. I read your thread when you first posted it but since I don't have the thoughts or feelings you described, I didn't respond, obviously. But I must say, what you're describing did remind me of a psychological state known as dissociation. Have you heard of it? It's where a person feels disconnected from themselves, and maybe if the person didn't know what it was they were experiencing, perhaps they'd start to have speculations like yours. Just a thought. I found your post interesting but I hope you're going okay.