Thought for sure I would feel more down today, but gosh does a good night sleep matter for my mental health. Woke up and the gears felt a little bit more in place. Then, my friend messaged me about an arts festival, and I started the day off with sunshine and socializing. That stopped me from sulking around. I don't exactly feel in control of my moods with my period on the way, but I feel more in control of my actions and a little bit of my thoughts. They don't run away on their own right now and get all loud and intrusive. Some are self destructive or really negative, but I can handle them easier. Also weird but I think caffeine can increase my SI perhaps due to making my thoughts louder/faster and increasing my anxiety/irritability? Not sure but that's weird it can affect me so much. Been decreasing the amount I drink and stopping before it is too late in the day. Hope these small changes continue to add up.
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