I emailed my cousin my condolences. I told her I tried to call her yesterday but couldn’t get through.

I don’t know why I had anxiety about sending condolences and put it off.

I know it would have been nicer to mail her a card, but she sent a simple email for her wedding invitation.

I’ll call my mom in a couple of days and act like nothing happened. That’s the dysfunction bs way we are now. I feel like an awful brat daughter for telling off my mother, especially my 83 year old mother. Everyone here must think I’m trash. I’m sorry I don’t have better self control. I will try to get off the phone next time she starts. If there even is any next time if she is speaking to me.