Perhaps you could volunteer to help others . I believe from reading one of your previous posts that your in your early 60's , so hopefully still very capable of being active . It might not be for you but lots of people fill voids in their lives by giving to others . I went to my primary schools 50th anniversary on the weekend ( I started there when the school was three years old ) There was a lady who used to help with everything . Scoring for sports , helping at stalls , loads of things . She's 86 now and was at the school for the occasion , O.k. She is not as sharp as she once was , but I spoke to her for half an hr and others from the gathering were hovering around to get to her once I buggered off . I thanked her for the kindness she had shown to us kids and kids that followed after us .She told me her husband had died young and she did it so she didn't feel lonely . Her life must have been far from perfect , but she touched so many of us , and I'd like to think found some happiness in that .