you are you already

heres a question to think about, I dont necessarily need an answer.

dissociation to the extreme of having others in one body is one of those things that dont happen suddenly. its one of those life time things, starting at a very young age (before the age of 5 in my locations mental health statistics/ demographics that treatment providers report to the state health department and on government required reports/ census) and continues until all are integrated back into one whole personality.

I take it that you are not sam. beyond, kevin and kitty (other wise you would not have mentioned them and how they are vs how you are) so all these years from before 5 yrs old on up how were you different... I mean did you all talk the same, using the same language, same sentence structure, words, tones... did you all do the exactly the same sense of agency (what your jobs, purpose, reason for being created are, what you can and cant do to help take care of everything that you do, what causes you to come out and take care of things that need to be done....and much more)

you see in DID systems everyone is important and everyone has their own ways, their own distinctions from each other even though they reside inside the same body....

example even though rainy lived inside my body and I obviously did not have a 4-5 year old body as an adult she still had her own distinctions that made her who and what she was. Why she wasnt thelma, these distinctions were what made her different than any of the others and why she was called a dissociative alter by treatment providers.

the bottom line is if you didnt have these distinctions from the others you would not be there in the way that you are doing what ever you do for you and everyone. if you were not different than the others then you would be integrated into one whole person again...

these distinctions for you and the body that you are in may not be clothing and material things.....

Example......I know my alters distinctions was not focused on clothing because my system followed the abusers code of do not tell, which meant dont call attention to ourselves by dressing different and all those materialistic ways. our system in order to survive had to be much deeper than clothing, nail polish, make up and other materialistic ways.

we instead had to be cunning, swift, hyper aware of dangers, great at school so as to not call attention to failing grades.... anything that did not point to the fact that the abuse happened and the alters were there. our system had to protect and hold the secrets of abuse at all costs. in order to do that we had to have a special and deeper kind of system then looks, clothing....

maybe your distinctions goes much deeper than the materialistic things, for what ever was needed for you to survive.

I bet if you sit down and think about this you may actually find many distinctions that keep you apart from all the others, makes you, who and what you are that ..........is ...........different and separate from the others.