I think it's too early to tell if the ECT is helping or not, although I do feel really revved up when I wake up from it. I wouldn't say I'm really depressed now, but there is some paranoia breaking through. I was really stressed this morning and heard voices too. It's not even that my bipolar is particularly unstable right now, I just want to lower the dose on my Clozaril. I'm getting tachycardia, constipation, excessive sleep, and weight gain as side effects and I just can't handle it anymore. I hope I get to lower the dose soon. I know I shouldn't, but I've thought of lowering the dose on my own. This is almost as intolerable as Risperdal.