Thanks everyone. I just, I'm having a hard time with the idea that I have DID. I know I at least have DDNOS because I've had too many moments where I have no clue where I am, who I'm with or even what my name is. It lasts for a couple minutes at a time. I know I have these voices in my head that are different from the ones my antipsychotic is attempting to take care of (the external ones). I know I shouldn't deny what I've experienced, seeing myself do things but have zero control over my body. Have a lot of moments I don't remember really, not without a voice telling me or "showing" me what happened. What if I'm just crazy? What if this is just me being psychotic and my meds aren't working? To accept that I have this means I have to accept what the voices tell me happened and these "memories" I have aren't false. I'm not sure I can accept that, or any of it.