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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
Thanks everyone. I just, I'm having a hard time with the idea that I have DID. I know I at least have DDNOS because I've had too many moments where I have no clue where I am, who I'm with or even what my name is. It lasts for a couple minutes at a time. I know I have these voices in my head that are different from the ones my antipsychotic is attempting to take care of (the external ones). I know I shouldn't deny what I've experienced, seeing myself do things but have zero control over my body. Have a lot of moments I don't remember really, not without a voice telling me or "showing" me what happened. What if I'm just crazy? What if this is just me being psychotic and my meds aren't working? To accept that I have this means I have to accept what the voices tell me happened and these "memories" I have aren't false. I'm not sure I can accept that, or any of it.
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Thanks for saying.
“DID” is such a huge pill that it goes down quite hard and takes awhile to swallow, months or maybe years. Be gentle to yourself.....it still sounds like things are too recent in discovery, yes?
Everyone goes through doubting DID, so you are not alone in that aspect. To just accept anything as the truthl without doubting is quite foolish, is it not? Doubting can lead to truth whichever it maybe....so keep doubting till in your heart you know for sure what is happening with you.
We still have doubters in our system, but most of us knows and knew the truth. Our doubts stemmed from fears, uncertainty, denial, impatience, disbelief, shock, or non-acceptance. But over time with this universally accepted knowledge within, most of the Others have come around while a few doubters still remain, but not as many as before.
I just say give it time; stay on your program, wait, watch and see what happens taking it a step at a time. You don’t have to accept any of this mmediately....just let it grow on you which I suppose is a good way of saying it.
If the meds start working, then there you go. I took antipsychotics for a little bit, it didn’t take away the voices...but it sure made us brain dead, so we quit them. We’re not psychotic anyways.
Hopefully you’ll find your peace soon enough.
