Well I'm looking back and resurrecting this thread for my own benefit. I clearly had some good insight back in January. It didn't change. I did my part in contributing to the end of things, but when the other partner does nothing to talk about the problems and come to a solution, well, in my case, I went and had a breakdown that really ended it. I'm actually very surprised that I feel relief. Maybe it hasn't hit me yet. But I know I couldn't live with him the way things are, even to date him anymore *we didn't live together, only temporary stays
What a shame though, all my love and effort gone..... but I will always have some good times to think of..... it's just that if I allow myself to think of those good times right now I will fall back into some false hope that there will be another time again to feel his warmest hugs.