I’m 35. In april i married for the first time, to a man i have known for 17 years. We had dated once before in 2012 for about 6 months but i broke things off because we were partying and being unhealthy and i couldn't put trust into him to not hurt me so i dumped him rather than work through it. We parted ways and didnt speak until about 2 years ago. I went to rehab and got my life back on track. Back to college, working, etc. I love my husband so much, before i would have considered him one of my best friends. Now, all we share is sex. I cant depend on him to be home on time. I never expect him to be home for dinner and i cant remember the last time he was. Most nights of the week he doesnt even come home until after im in bed. We dont go anywhere together or do anything together. I just feel like i cant depend on him for anything. This is not the marriage that i wanted. I thought we were best friends and would be able to have a rad relationship and life together but its just empty and lonely. I know that im difficult to be in a relationship with, I recently was able to put a name to my biggest issue, that i grew up with childhood emotional neglect so i am not in touch with my emotions and have a hard time connecting. Communication is very difficult for me. I think we’re both narcissistic and i think he has borderline personality. I feel like we’re just incompatible as husband and wife and i dont know whether to just call it quits or what to do. But im just at the end of my rope. I believe in til death do us part which is why im 35 and just married for the first time, but maybe we just made a mistake? Im clueless and looking for any help I can. Thank you