My day was sh**. I emailed my T last night(while I was drunk so the email had so many errors) to tell her I was going off the meds and how I have been drinking a lot.

This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesnt seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week

Then I couldnt focus on anything properly and kept screwing everything up at work which felt even worse when all I wanted was to go home and cry.

My husband took my alcohol to work with him for the night so I dont have anything to drink which is good but feels so bad. When he is on nights I cant leave the house though so its the one time when no matter how bad I want it I cant get any. I know alcohol is so horrible so I do want to stop I just cant seem to sometimes.