[Faltering]

I took the first dose of lithium this morning at work. I sat down for an hour to test a student. I didn't realize my foot fell asleep. I stood up and injured my foot trying to walk. It kind of fell to the side and was unable to function for a minute. My foot fell asleep briefly again while I was walking. I was fine after that. I went to a meeting and sat down for another hour. I felt my foot falling asleep but it was brief and I was able to walk afterward. My foot still hurts from bending it earlier. I wonder if this effect is from the lithium. Other than that I don't feel any physical side effects. I feel okay mentally. It'll take some time to see if lithium helps.

[Sunflower123]

Ok, let’s try this again without the rant. I heard back from my pdoc and he put me on Trintellix for SAD. I’ve never actually heard of this before. Does anybody have any experience with it?

Sending out hugs to those that need them.

[Scooter9]

I started a new job this past Monday. It's far away from home but I only have to drive a short distance to a train station.

I'm out 12 hours a day now... a big change from being home all the time when I was out of work.

So far so good for the first few days... lots to learn. But now I can get Starbucks twice a day so that's a big plus!

We finished emptying the house of our recently disabled relative and the house is now sold. There were a lot of good memories there and I'm sad to see it go.

I'm still depressed but the modafinil I started a couple of months ago is starting to work so I'm only moderately depressed now (as opposed to severely depressed before). I'm also sleeping 7 hours now instead of 10-12.

[TheSeaCat]

Today was a good day, worked only a half a day, I think I am getting the hang of things. I really like all of the providers; granted I wish they would email me for time off instead of text me at random hours. My phone dings; my email doesn't.

Saw my primary doctor, my blood pressure was in the range of normal, go me. My pulse was lower than yesterday, 132 instead of 150. He changed my Prilosec from once a day to twice a day to combat the Seroquel. He is massively proud of me for getting this new job. He can see that I am happy, I ended up telling him about what the therapist said about the PTSD, he's like I've suspected it, they really did you wrong here. He even showed me the referral notes and the new person made the mistake; which I figured. He's like I would never do something that would possibly destabilize you. You've worked very hard to get to where you are. He even personally did my flu shot, and I think he's better than the nurse, because I'm the biggest baby when it comes to vaccines and I honestly didn't feel it. I have to see him again in a month, he asked if I was ready to cut the cord and do two month follow ups. I said no let's see each other again in a month, I wasn't ready to cut quite yet; not to mention I figure he probably wants to know how that Cardiologist went. He can tell I'm doing better now, and one of the nurses I used to work with tackled me when she saw me. She misses me. It's hard trying to adjust to this new office, but I'm doing as best I can be. He's also ecstatic that I've gone back to therapy.

Now to run my paper through Grammarly and read over it one last time before I submit it. I also showed my doctor the research, he should at least know and he says I see that the hospital is going too rapidly and that once his contract is up he will probably be seeking employment elsewhere; at least I still have him for three more years. He has had several disagreements in regards to the growth and how they treat some employees. I surprised myself today with my honesty of how things are, I didn't want to tell him two things and I ended up telling him.

Hugs to everyone

P.S. I've noticed I've gotten more wordy here lately, I guess I'm really growing to trust you all, and I think you all for your kindness and wonderful advice.

[MJLouise]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I took the first dose of lithium this morning at work. I sat down for an hour to test a student. I didn't realize my foot fell asleep. I stood up and injured my foot trying to walk. It kind of fell to the side and was unable to function for a minute. My foot fell asleep briefly again while I was walking. I was fine after that. I went to a meeting and sat down for another hour. I felt my foot falling asleep but it was brief and I was able to walk afterward. My foot still hurts from bending it earlier. I wonder if this effect is from the lithium. Other than that I don't feel any physical side effects. I feel okay mentally. It'll take some time to see if lithium helps.

Has this happened off the lithium? I get “dead leg” and drop foot and the dr. Thinks I might also have multiple sclerosis. Do you get numbness and tingling? If it’s just the medicine I’d call the dr. If it’s happened before you might need some MRI scans or to see a neurologist

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Ok, let’s try this again without the rant. I heard back from my pdoc and he put me on Trintellix for SAD. I’ve never actually heard of this before. Does anybody have any experience with it?

Sending out hugs to those that need them.

Hi Jenn, I've personally never been on Trintellix but it is a depression medication, a potent one from what I've read. I would think with it working with depression it would work with SAD; since that is a from of depression. I hope it works with the SAD.

[~Christina]

F%#^^%^^>>^**€ yesterday and today

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

F%#^^%^^>>^**€ yesterday and today

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

F%#^^%^^>>^**€ yesterday and today

Exactly!! I’m sorry you are struggling and hope you feel better soon. I hope you don’t get offended but I had a deep belly laugh over the sentiment. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

[yellow_fleurs]

For those feeling like they just keep falling down, here's a cute video about a bear cub you might relate to

. Hope it makes you smile.

That being said I am really struggling in the isolating-don't-want-to-reach-out-to-anyone-and-feel-very-hopeless-about-it getting-better kind of way. Couldn't even focus at work today. Neglecting self care a bit. Turning to music for comfort. It's usually the one thing that can ground me.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

F%#^^%^^>>^**€ yesterday and today

I'll second that. Sorry you are struggling

[Tryingtobehappy5]

My day was sh**. I emailed my T last night(while I was drunk so the email had so many errors) to tell her I was going off the meds and how I have been drinking a lot.

This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesnt seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week

Then I couldnt focus on anything properly and kept screwing everything up at work which felt even worse when all I wanted was to go home and cry.

My husband took my alcohol to work with him for the night so I dont have anything to drink which is good but feels so bad. When he is on nights I cant leave the house though so its the one time when no matter how bad I want it I cant get any. I know alcohol is so horrible so I do want to stop I just cant seem to sometimes.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

My day was sh**. I emailed my T last night(while I was drunk so the email had so many errors) to tell her I was going off the meds and how I have been drinking a lot.

This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesnt seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week :bawling

Oh god that is terrible, I am so sorry that your therapist couldn't bother to care. Please don't go off your meds they really are helping you even though you don't thank so. Have you talked to Pdoc about the recent issues. I know you don't want to hear it but drinking can and most of the time makes the depressed state worse. Feel better.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

I believe my meds are making me much worse. I have never had issues like I have now before I started meds 2 years ago and Im so tired of it.

I dont plan to tell my pdoc anything at this point, I see no use in that. I have told him before and it doesnt help.

I definitely know how depressed alcohol can make me, I have had more than enough issues because of my drinking to know exactly what it does. I just dont care very much most of the time. Or I see something in my life is not the way I want it to be and start self destructing because I dont want to even be close if I cant have it all.

[Moose72]

I slept all day except to eat lunch. Now its bedtime.

[Wild Coyote]

Yesterday, went to see sleep doc. Followed that by going to see "Bohemian Rhapsody." It's an outstanding movie! I am quite sure it will be nominated for awards.

The same guy who had played Mr. Robot also plays Freddie Mercury.
His name is: Rami Malek!

We then went to a local pub to listen to live music.

Trying to have more fun!


WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

My day was sh**. I emailed my T last night(while I was drunk so the email had so many errors) to tell her I was going off the meds and how I have been drinking a lot.

This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesnt seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week

Then I couldnt focus on anything properly and kept screwing everything up at work which felt even worse when all I wanted was to go home and cry.

My husband took my alcohol to work with him for the night so I dont have anything to drink which is good but feels so bad. When he is on nights I cant leave the house though so its the one time when no matter how bad I want it I cant get any. I know alcohol is so horrible so I do want to stop I just cant seem to sometimes.

OMG, what a terrible T! Going off your meds without pdoc help is never a good idea. I tried that once, and I ended up in a crisis center because a lot of these meds you just can't stop cold turkey. Some of them, you can miss 1 or 2 doses, some even a few more, but then it catches up on you. Thank God I didn't pull that number when I was on Effexor (because that one was tough to stop even with a prolonged taper).

[Victoria'smom]

This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesn't seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week. I have a simalar issue, no therapist will work with me if I'm not on medication. I had a T that decided I wasn't making progress and I never went back to her. Now I'm wth out a T. which is dangerous.

My old T told me as long as I showed up then I want help. so please keep that in mind.

[Blueberrybook]

Had a meltdown making tacos for dinner. Not sure why. Thoughts racing and too many things to keep track of cooking at once: taco shells, the meat, the rice, try to chop the veggies in between all this, daughter asking how to solve a confusing math problem. Just too much at once.

I guess at least the tacos turned out OK, but the rice was a loss.

[~Christina]

Thanks EVERYONE for the kind words they really make a difference!

I have cervical and a shoulder problem(s)and went for first Physical Therapy appt. My right side is fine. My left is the problem .... excruciating pain in all kinds of motions. There’s a huge difference

Can’t even get some clothes on without my husband helping. I’m not use to needing help like this.

Anyway they want 2 visits a week but problem is I can’t afford to go. So yeah.

I see Orthopedic Dr for consult tomorrow altho I don’t know what good it will do if I can’t afford to get any help.

This is just another painful problem on top of all my other pain problems just has me losing my shyt today.

[Victoria'smom]

My left is the problem .... excruciating pain in all kinds of motions. There’s a huge difference I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. Is there anything they can do?

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Thanks EVERYONE for the kind words they really make a difference!

I have cervical and a shoulder problem(s)and went for first Physical Therapy appt. My right side is fine. My left is the problem .... excruciating pain in all kinds of motions. There’s a huge difference

Can’t even get some clothes on without my husband helping. I’m not use to needing help like this.

Anyway they want 2 visits a week but problem is I can’t afford to go. So yeah.

I see Orthopedic Dr for consult tomorrow altho I don’t know what good it will do if I can’t afford to get any help.

This is just another painful problem on top of all my other pain problems just has me losing my shyt today.

I hope that the consult goes well, you'll be in my thoughts tomorrow. I'm sorry you feel you are loosing your shyt. I hope you get good answers tomorrow.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesn't seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week. I have a simalar issue, no therapist will work with me if I'm not on medication. I had a T that decided I wasn't making progress and I never went back to her. Now I'm wth out a T. which is dangerous.

My old T told me as long as I showed up then I want help. so please keep that in mind.

I am thinking I will still go. I feel ****** but I want to get better and I dont want to give up. Im worried she has given up though. I do want help but I need to help myself more too, I feel like not drinking tonight was really positive but its only one night so I dont know if I should give myself too much credit and start thinking I will actually do better. I dont think it would be good for me to quit therapy at all.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Thanks EVERYONE for the kind words they really make a difference!

I have cervical and a shoulder problem(s)and went for first Physical Therapy appt. My right side is fine. My left is the problem .... excruciating pain in all kinds of motions. There’s a huge difference

Can’t even get some clothes on without my husband helping. I’m not use to needing help like this.

Anyway they want 2 visits a week but problem is I can’t afford to go. So yeah.

I see Orthopedic Dr for consult tomorrow altho I don’t know what good it will do if I can’t afford to get any help.

This is just another painful problem on top of all my other pain problems just has me losing my shyt today.

You need the help!
Sent you info on PM. I hope it's a viable option for you.

Thinking of you, friend!

WC

[Lefty Seven]

Victory at sea today. Institutional client. My 75-year-old boss doesn't get excited, drink or do drugs, so I had to do it all for her. It's in my job description. I'm not quite done with the drugs.

I stole my personality
From an anonymous source
And I'm gonna pay for it, too
I don't feel bad about that

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