Does your T ever say to you, these are just thoughts, just feelings? Thus, so what? I wonder if there is anybody that doesn't want to act out in therapy, who has thoughts, feelings, fantasies that thrive under the general calm making of therapy. I have felt and thought and fantasized about doing many childish and otherwise ridiculous things, maybe the brain needs this. I have wondered if these feelings are generated by a desire for resolution (which the brain definitely wants) and when things are really stirred up for me, and when I realize there is a long road ahead to change them, and when the changing or the work needed to do it differently feels like too much, that's when I have these feelings/urges/whatever. Because I think a part of me wants to end this difficult place by pissing off the T and hoping they'll kick me out, so I don't have to deal with this tough stuff anymore.

Feelings and thoughts and what not do not have to lead to action. I think it's only the action that is the issue. So feel away, just use your "wise brain" to accept this is how you feel (for me, the shortest path to ending the feelings, it's like once I acknowledge they are there they leave me alone) and keep the lid on your mouth or your fists or whatever you might use to engage in destructive behavior.