Thank you. I will see my psychiatric nurse practitioner in mid Jan. I had to cut my paxil in half because it was making my ocd/ptsd act up badly--lots of anxiety. I can only see the pnp every 6 wks. because of his schedule and the fact they have a shortage of pdocs where I go now. I'm getting by by calling a support line when things get really bad. It helps. My sister passed 32 years ago...we never forget them and as time goes on sometimes it hurts just as much as it did back then. Such a short life she had. Wish I could have seen her grow old like me. I cried a lot yesterday and the day before. It helped to cry--it's a way of releasing the pain and helps the body, too. I'm not feeling as bad today. The low doseage of risperdal I take is helping some, too. Thanks again.