feling soooo sad. do you all try to keep your posts more upbeat? I don't want to be such a drag on these forums all the time. Ironically my personna is the opposite....so much so that people call me sunshine. They see me as funny, light hearted, easy going.....and happy. Amazing how well we can hide our torment. I am dying inside! Have been for a long time. Sometimes I am completley dead...no life in me at all