I was afraid of integration when I was in therapy,mostly because I wasn't really sure what it was,what it meant and how it worked.I thought it meant getting rid of insiders or killing them off and I felt like it would somehow change me into someone or something I didn't want to be.I was afraid I would lose who I was,afraid I would forget where I came from,what my life was,etc.

It didn't matter how much my therapist talked to me about it or tried to explain what it was,since I couldn't imagine what it would be like,couldn't imagine how I could be any different or my life could ever be different since I never knew anything different I just couldn't fathom what it would be like or what it even was.And I was afraid .

Are you afraid of it?What are your fears about it?