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(((((((( colleen, pink ))))))

yeah - it did feel like an accomplishment - not 'mine' per se, but a together thing. like we reached something - or someplace that pulled it all together, made it make some cognitive sense. I am remembering (because it is important) that she told me that doing the memory work is good, and talking about it in PC and with her is important because it brings it out of the trauma/shock state where stuff has stayed for so long.
like i need to tattoo that phrase to the inside of my eyelids so i can see it often and know it is not only ok, but good and important. i think this is the first time they/ I have felt validated in just doing memory work and having flashbacks... she wasn't scared or worried - but interested/concerned at a depth which is new to me. at first i felt repulsion toward her "curiosity" until i realized it wasn't that kind of curiosity - it was being attuned to me. and that made it ok.