Sometimes the “experts” are wrong! Oftentimes ones who consider themselves experts are not. Where there is breath there is hope. You are still breathing, so there is hope. You can have a good life, a life with hope.

I don’t know why meds aren’t an option, but I am sure you know better than I do. Is talk therapy an option? What other things have you tried? What do you have energy to try? Can you do any self care?

Thank you for posting here. You are not alone in this horrible disease of depression. My depression tells me all sorts of negative ugly thoughts, sometimes coming at me so fast I don’t even have time to address them. It is very difficult. But we have both survived so far, and it sounds like you survived against the odds. You are strong!

My therapist asked me a question that her little daughter asked her. “How do you eat an elephant?” My response was, “you don’t .” because it’s so big and because I wouldn’t want to eat one because they are beautiful intelligent creatures. But the answer was, “ one forkful at a time.” The concept being that when we are overwhelmed with life and it seems too much to handle, we can try breaking it down into smaller pieces, smaller more doable steps and just take it one small bite (step) at a time. We won’t get it all done at once but when we do what we can, at least we have accomplished something. Sometimes that small accomplishment is enough to give us energy to do more. Sometimes it’s not. But either way, we just keep going the best we can. Just do the next thing. What can you do?