I feel the same most days. I compare my life to the movie groundhog day- fail to sleep, do nothing of value all day, cope with too much, eat too much, then fail to sleep again

honestly 16 years of " things will get better" is bull ****. things don't get better, they get worse

but please don't kill yourself. don't look up on google about mixing the meds

I've been in that place and



it's really scary when you're lying in that hospital bed wondering if actually, this is it and you've succeeded in what you set out to do- I have come close many times