My problem with finding help, is there is no time for that. I have to work. I have to pay the bills...I have no other option as I choose a career that requires long hours. I have expressed my desire to do something different. But it all falls on deaf ears. I am losing valuable time with my kids. When I am off from work...on the weekends...I am left with a pile of mess that I don't even know how to begin. My kids dad tells them that is it ridiculous that I wake them up so early in the morning. My kids hate me for that, but I have to do it, to go to work (which I am late for everyday). Everyone hates me. I have no one to lean on. It's this big circle of sadness and despair. There is no way out of this.