thanks Christina, it's hard because some times I feel it's too much, or becomes a rant.


Sunday doc called and I am really appreciated of her interest and caring, however her way of communicating isn't my style. I respect that she's worked hard to get where she is, but I do believe growing and learning never ceases ..especially in the health field.


On Friday I had already asked to speak with the specialist to go over the endoscopy biopsy, that's another story that if I mentioned it some may ask why go back to this gen doc...

Friday i had a stat ultrasound sound.

Sunday's call doc tells me with In the same conversation that:

I should had went to the hospital and if it ever happens again to go to the hospital... and then promptly after saying it's just fatty liver , and no that couldn't have caused my symptoms, and those are still a mystery... then telling me "well you have been stressed and may be that's what this all is".


If it was "just stress" I wouldn't had went in, what was going on was very physical and very real, at least to me and a few others too that saw me...

I did tell her I wanted a second opinion, which she agreed we could do another scan.


Today after working I went back to the place that the ultrasound was done and got a copy of images and the report.

It's not doom, but it's more than a "just" as if not much.

Yes, scream that I am a horrible patient, I know.. but I am not a freaked out patient, I am a learning and "where am" I patient that needs input from someone educated.


Been reading a lot. Looked up a lot, been reading of life changes .. also read more than one article that talks of the symptoms i had with the report findings, and how it probably shouldn't be shrugged off... I know I only went and got my vet tech cert many years ago, but health and body things I do like to read on. Reason why I kept my back images and researched was because of interest too and amazement with the body.


Anyways, it's funny .. liver problems.. angry liver... liver -the seat of anger ..aaannnndddd last T telling me my anger wasn't integrated

Oh..

How things some times go hand in hand I guess I am reminded, is what I am trying to say.


On top of that, that kid next to me that recently moved out, verbally office told me he was infested-- no wonder i saw a roach then.


My cat is with my ex (his "dad parent" ) because I can't be remote or late at work tomorrow and it's easier for everyone... I miss my cat and have felt sad that I had to disrupt him. Cat is a sensitive guy, and I just want the best for him... I was talking to him as if I was telling a child of what was going on...


It will all be ok, and yes I have and continue to be stressed but life does go on... I've been very bouncy again, but isn't that my natural state?


Yes, still need to see a head doc..just my physical issues took precedence I felt... and yes, I understand the stress and slight depression before hand didn't assist with this now... but I cant go back.. only forward.. and I have to remind myself that a lot