I heard about this awesome cliff where if you climb upto the top of it you can jump off into the lake far below. Many people have tried it. The only ones that really complained they didn't like it were the ones that didn't do it right or only went up there for the attention. The attention seekers were very few and far between but there were some. Even though it is scary to me I wanted to try it. I climb all the way upto the edge and look out. I can't do it. I'm too scared. So I back away a few steps. No I can do this. I go back to the edge and once again back away because I'm too scared. I have done this a few times now. Most people only know about the 1st time. 1 or 2 know about the 2nd. No one knows about the other times. So I am not one of those doing it for the attention. I am just too much of a coward to follow through. It didn't take bravery to back away. There was no one there pressuring me to do it. So there was simply just cowardness involved. So don't tell me I am brave for even going up there in the 1st place, or brave for backing away. I am and will always be a coward for backing away until the day I jump.